loneheart149

Dancing with the Grim Reaper Is exciting Enticing Invigorating Ive missed death Twice in my life Death comes luring back Not sure what to expect It freaks my love out But I'm as calm as I can be I've done this dance Since I was only 3 You think you have seen death You only wished I use to dance on his toes As he twirled me around Hand in hand Step by step We will be together again I just have to take his hand.

Pain loves to follow me I wish I could help love But I can't I'm half the woman he thinks I'm half the person i know Too many have came and ate Ate away at my soul There is nothing much to work with I'm strong but only because A few roots holds me up I'm only like this From all the damage hits I took I am brutal From all the assist kills I am so heartless From all the kills So I wish I was amazing I wish I was sweet But hunny, There is nothing left inside of me An empty shell A broken heart A woman I barely know Everytime I'm pushed down I get back up Everytime I'm hit I stand back up Nothing is stopping me Because I have nothimg

Insomina tugs at my brain Tossing and turning Pacing back and forth in my head I haven't written in you Not since that time I try to talk to my boyfriend Calm the storm in my mind The water splashing My eyes heavy But tonight they wont be closing I knew that once I saw a pic A picture of you I couldn't Think Breathe I stare at it. My mind drags me down the hallway I'm crying, begging, yelling "Please don't. I don't want to see!" Pictures of you, Pictures of me Dusty hanging down the hallway Some have drapes over them Some of them are shattered I forgot what it was like As I walk up to my favorite one I blow the dust off Wiping the

Beautiful You look amazing in that dress Wish I was there to see you See you all dressed up Tears tugging at your eyes Tears tugging at mine I fucked up And now I'm all alone Happy now yeah? I always knew you would be I have no one, Two miscarriages down And still have an empty heart I tried to be more than I was I tried to be happy But knowing that you are Will bring me some kind of closure You were my favorite Like a season of the year That holds me close As these autumn leaves fall I see your face Laughing, smiling Actually looking at me Because I'll have no one to look at Except this river My river of tears Cold icy water fillin

Those eyes so intense as if you see deep into my brown eyes Those eyes makes me want to stare and I catch myself a quiet moment between us and my face gets hot and i start to smile When people ask about you I can't help but smile knowing that I am lying of how crazy I am about you Those eyes I wish you would see me I wish you would study me I wish, I wish I wish you would notice me Intense, penetrating eyes even when you smile they are still serious mysterious Please, just notice me

Damn he is gorgeous Sexy doesn't do him justice When he looks at me The world stops I can't breathe My face is hot and I can't stop smiling Those eyes, those eyes are stunning Memorizing I sing about you every day now I sit around hoping that you out of all guys is thinking of me too I want to be yours I want to know what it is like to be held by you to be touched by you I wonder, i wonder Will you ever see me? But you walk on by but you walk on by....

He is cold and distant now He comes over to feel good and then leave When a few weeks ago He couldn't get me out out of his mind He couldn't stop caring He wouldn't let go of me Overprotective Overpossessive But it made me feel needed Wanted But now, he just wants my body now he just wants a quick fix now, now, he doesn't see me He doesn't recognize me He can't see my pain He doesn't know And I don't show All the pain wrapped behind my smile As he looks into my brown eyes I wonder, what did I do to deserve this? Why am I so easy to fool?

Every time I see you Those puppy eyes That smile that melts my heart I want to kiss you And hug you I want to snuggle up to you Nothing but skin And feel your beard on my cheek I want to be in that moment Run my fingers through your hair And feel your smile on my lips. But when I see you I pretend I don't care I pretend it doesn't matter I pretend, I pretend, I pretend That my heart doesn't matter.

I kissed you today And woke up Disoriented and confused You were just here and now your gone I smelled your scent Intoxicating and luring As I'm tangled in my sheets I groan and close my eyes I sleep more now Just to be with you longer The old you The you I wanted the most But like my dream you vanished And now I sleep So I can be with you until I can't remember anymore

I dream of what if's I think about you I want to know what it is like To be loved, to be missed I want to know what it is like To stop loving someone I will lie to you Tell you I don't care I will cry behind closed doors And clear my voice before you call I will become silent While getting lost in my thoughts Wondering, thinking, is it true? Am I that hard to love? Am I undesirable? Do men only lust after my body? And leave my soul to parish. Should I be what you desire? Or keep drowning in my loneliness...